Saturday, October 31, 2015

Allowances

Allowances
Noel Laflin
10-31-15


The fly-by-night carnival pulled into town early one Friday morning and was open for business by sunset.  The neighborhood was abuzz in anticipation as the old vacant lot at Lincoln and East was suddenly transformed into a city of light beckoning one and all - young and old - to come take a stroll down the hastily erected boardwalk, drop a dime, throw a dart, toss a ball, lift a hammer and ding a bell.
 
And we did.

It cost me nearly two week’s allowance to finally win a small iron horse at one of the arcades.  The game of chance had something to do with balls and hoops – or balls and bottles – or perhaps, it was balls and holes and tilting boards.  It’s all a blur now.  All I know for certain is that I finally won the smallest of prizes and declined the barker’s enticing promise of winning a bigger horse if only I would lay down just one more dime and toss, or throw, or roll another three balls.  And although I was only ten, I knew when I’d been coyly conned and nearly beaten out of my forty cents, and decided to put the small prize and my last dime in my pocket and walk away.

As there was just one coin left, I had the choice of either cotton candy or the Ferris wheel.  I chose to see my neighborhood from a higher viewpoint.
 
Once aloft, and circling about again and again, I saw the lay of the land as I’d never had before.
 
There were the tops of houses, including my own, rising and falling with every rotation of the swinging gondolas.  I had the cart all to myself.

‘Tequila,’ by the Champs, came blaring through tinny speakers down below.  The song would rise and fade with each revolution.

The old orange grove beside the vacant lot appeared to go on forever, but did eventually end at the block wall separating both it and the city’s ancient graveyard that lay just on the other side. The cemetery was dark and spooky, and the white marble angel with the broken arm was hard to spot.
 
And it was with more than just a bit of satisfaction that I was finally level with the tallest of the aged trees that shadowed the graves below.

I spied my school across the street and down the road a bit and marveled at the expanse of the playground and darkened ball field running south.

The faraway homes of friends, laid out in cookie cutter fashion, would come into focus and then disappear with every rotation.
 
Downtown lights flickered on and off with every rise and fall of the giant wheel.

And all too soon, the song was over, as was the ride.

As I was out of money I left the carnival and entered the grove I’d just viewed from above, and walked a path I’d walked a thousand times before.  I decided to take the long way home and hopped the old cemetery wall and ran the distance of the graveyard, as one just did not merely take a stroll through such a place alone and at night.
 
I climbed the ivy-covered chain link fence and dropped onto safer ground.  I was now at the end of the street that I called home and made a beeline for it.

And so the horse was taken from a pocket and placed upon a bedroom desk.  Over time, it found its way into a drawer and then eventually a box where it lay forgotten for decades to come.

I recently came across a small box within a box that had been residing on a dusty shelf buried deep in the garage.  A small iron horse lay within.

A memory regarding a game of chance – something to do with balls, and a foolishly spent allowance – suddenly came into focus.

And so did a Ferris wheel, a hit song of the late fifties, a view of a neighborhood now much changed, and a nighttime run through a graveyard.

Like that night of long ago, I see it all from a slightly different level now.

And from this new viewpoint, I also see that perhaps some allowances need to be made for seemingly foolish childhood decisions of the past.

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